Nonsense

To be a human, sometime, is more difficult than to be other creatures, since you can get hurt and feel pain, in particular, experience endless loneliness. Living in this society, we have connections with others, someone is your mum, who born you and in most situation araised you, someone is your father, who is there, trying to support a family, or dissappeared for various reasons, someone is your sister or brother, with whom you share the same gene, but, however, you are just totally different, independent from each other, someone is your girlfriend or boyfriend, who is so intimate to you at times, which makes you so confused, since sometime, he or she just becomes so unfamiliar and far that seems too far to be known, someone is your friend, everywhere, in some occasion, you suddenly remember him/her, and your life becomes so beautiful, and your heart just becomes so warm, however, you just refuse to contact with your friend, being afraid this beautiful memory become worth. So, I have to ask myself, why I still feel so lonely even with so many connections. And, think about others, as a sister of my brother or my sister, as a daughter of my parents, as a girlfriend of my boyfriend, as a friend of my friends, they could become less lonely because of me? or, someone is feeling more loneliness because of me? Every individual is lonely, it is the truth of human being...
On Saturday afternoon, facing a computer, with a cup of tea at hand, silent surrounding and a vacant heart, I am sitting at dorm, feeling just the pure loneliness, a luxury private time, and my soul going everywhere it is willing to go. And, I am so clear about myself, this is me, a real person. This is life.